16 days....

...till I'm 21!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so excited!!!!
Now that that is outta the way.....I'm sorry I haven't posted in like 2 months. I have just been crazy crazy busy with school and work and all my new bills since I got the new car. I hope that everyone has been well, and had a great Valentines day, St. Patrick's Day, and Easter!!!
Theres not too much new stuff going on with me except for the birthday coming up. I am super excited to celebrate. I am so lucky because I have a group of fabulous friends who want to go out with me and have a fun time!!! We have a lot of idea about what we want to do, but so far my favorite ideas are...going to the Hacienda for a terrific Mexican dinner and lots of margaritas and strawberry daiquiris....then going to the palisades mall and hanging out at Dave and Busters for fun games and drinks...then if needed crashing at a close by hotel. It just is so so so so exciting!!!
So Jerry and I are thinking about doing another dieting competition. I whooped his ass last time, and he feels like coming back for seconds!!! I lost 8 lbs last time, and I think he only lost like 5 lbs. I am trying to lose 10 lbs this time. I want to lose it by my bday. 10 lbs seems kind of low, but I would rather be realistic and say 10, and lose 15 and be happy than start with 15 only lose 10 and feel like a failure. I really really want to get skinny. I am trying to stick to healthy food, and I have been going to the gym or going to my walking for wellness class everyday!! Hopefully I will make it happen!!!
I've gotta run now. Time to do some work!! Everybody have a great day!! See you again tomorrow!!!

New Car

I got a new car last night!!! After looking around and being very disappointed with my choices, I was finally able to find soemthing I could be happy with. I had to buy a used car becasue I was only approved for a loan of $7500 origionally. When I went to a diff dealership he got me approved for $10,000!!! I got an '05 Suzuki Verona. It's light blue, 4 door with power windows and locks. It really is nice. It has wood accents on the inside, and is very cute. I am very happy. It even came with a warrently, and I got an extended warrenty for only $30 xtra dollars a month. I miss my car so much though. It had a really nice cd deck in it, and great speakers that jerry bought for me for my birthday one year. It just has a lot of memories. I miss it, but I guess I did what I had to ddooo

vroom vroom no more

My car is broken!!!! Of all the times it could have picked to break....I had to call out of work at the college today.I still have to bartend tonight. I dropped my car off at the shop at 9:30, and I still haven't heard back yet. It has been feeling like the transmission has been giving me issues for a while, but my parents are in denial. Anyways, they won't cosign with me so I can get a new car. I finally got approved by myself, but only for a loan of $7500, which is better than nothing, but I won't be able to get a nice car that I really want. If they cosigned I could have whatever car I wanted that fit within my monthly budget. It makes me so mad tht they just wont help me. My current car is a '98 pontiac grand prix. it looks great. The inside is immaculate. I have never had any major issues with it....till now. We payed $10,000 for it about 4-5 years ago, and apparently now, it's only worth $2000. The dealership is willing to trade my car in for $2000 even though the check engine light is on. It's just so frustrating to think I could hav a new car dor a payment as low as $280/month for 62 months with 0% financing, but I can't do it bc my parents wont sign no matter how hard I beg them!!! So anyways, I have to go call the car guy now and see what the damage is, then I'm going to call the car dealership. Everybody have a great day!!!

Moving out....

...is what I desperately need to do!!!! I can't stand living at home anymore. I hate going to use my $7 a bottle shampoo and conditioner and not having any left!! I hate craving something I have bought to eat, and not being able to eat it because my family already did. I need my own space. I just seriously am about to go over the edge. Jerry's having the same issue as well. We can't afford to move in together though. It would be amazing if we could buy our own house....we both want the same kind( a log house), in the same kind of area (somewhere thats not here....we were taking about PA), and decorating it and just living the same way. He's very organized. I try to be, but with school full time, and 2 jobs, it's a little hard to keep my room clean sometimes. I am clean though, don't get me wrong. I hate every second that my room is dirty. I want my own house so that I can start over, and my room would never be messy again!!! I really wish we could do it now. Jer said theres no way though. H e said that one day though he does want to live with me, so I guess for now it's just something I'm going to have to look forward to. I know it's a lot of responsibility, but I am so ready for it. I like to clean, LOVE to cook. I just want my own life, my own space from my family. I'm only 20, and it seems kind of young, but I am just so ready to be independent. I know that it's not going to be a fairytale, and it would be hard because we would have a lot of bills, but it's just something I know I want, and I know I'm ready for. Well, after I graduate and get a job I will be ready for it. Speaking of graduating, and jobs.....I don't know what I am going to do after I graduate. I will have my associates in communications, and I was originally aiming to be on radio, but I'm not so sure I want to do that anymore. It's a job I would do for the love of it because it doesn't pay anything, and I would have to have another job on top of it. I kind of almost would rather have one steady 9-5 job, even if it isn't my dream job. I was thinking of applying at a bank or two in town. They pay decent, I like people, and it has benefits. Thats a major thing for me. Since I won't be at school anymore, I won't be on my parents insurance anymore. I need my own. I have heard even part timers get benefits at some banks. So I was thinking I would do part time at a bank(which is still almost 30 hrs a week), then keep my waitressing/bartending job, and then decide if I want to pursue a career in radio, or something along those lines. If anybody has any job suggestions...I'm all ears!!!

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I'm sorry I haven't written in a few days. I have just been feeling very down since Mary died. I have kind of a funny story though...I went to work last night even though it was snowing. I thought it would stop. Well, it didn't. It was like a blizzard!! At 4, I couldn't even get up the driveway to my jobs parking lot, so I had to park in the lot next door that belongs to the firemen. So I park it there, and they ask me to move to a certian spot so they can plow. I do it. Then I hear them snickering about how funny it was to watch me try and get up the driveway for work. So around 6, a guy walks in and says "you have a flat tire". I asked if there was anybody who could change it for me, and he said no and walked away. What the hell??? You're part of the fire dept...you're supposed to help people! Anyways, there as this really sweet guy at the bar who offered to take my flat to his dads shop and see if he could patch the hole. I had a donut in the trunk, but the roads were so bad by then that I was too afraid to drive the 30 mins home on a donut. So we go over to my car, and hes on his hands and knees in his jeans wih no gloves or coat, and he takes my tire off for me. So he comes back later, and says he couldnt find the leak! He filled it for me, and I drove home. It took me over an hour, but I was there safe. So today I took my car to get the tire fixed, and the guy in town who does all of my repairs says to me "this tire is supposed to be flat? I can't find a hole in it!" He then suggested that maybe the air was let out of my tire. So now I am thinking about it...those firemen are such jerks...I wouldn't put it past them to do that to me. Ssoooooooo...the moral of the story is, I bought the guy who fixed my tire that night a drink, I won't park anywhere other than my work parking lot again, and I deff won't go in when its snowing so much anymore!!!

Sadness

Thank you everybody for your prayers and good thoughts for Mary. Unfortunately, she just couldn't hold on any longer, and she died today. I can't really type much else, but I wanted everybody to know how much I appreciate all of the prayers.

Moron

Well, it's official...I am a complete moron!!! I am going to have to go over to Jenn's for some major blogging help. I'm pathetic, I know lol. So no news last night about Mary. We waited all night for a phone call, but never got one. I am hoping that today we will have some news. I don't have much time to write right now, but later I will have lots of time, so I promise I will post something interesting!!!